I want to gather people here, to Discuss : Suicide BECAUSE they’re being a Burden

I want to make this thread, to gather people like me, who probably considering suicide because “i’m being a burden to others”. Other people that want to talk about the topic but don’t actually have that personal experience are also welcome.

For me? I felt that i have been a huge burden for my family, I’m the first kid in my family (male), i have a little sister in highschool, i’m still in college, but i have somewhat realized that i’m incompetent at times, can’t make any money, and just generally being a burden and a nuisance for my parent. I’m not “The Perfect Kid” That’s successfull, well liked, etc. My parents are at times somewhat dissapointed with me.

There are also special circumstances, family problems. My father is cheating with another woman. My mother sometime get sick (she have a special illness) and constantly crying and being mad at my father. The “Economy Gap” Between my father’s family and my mother’s is quite huge. My mother’s family is a bit poor, while my father’s family is quite rich, but even so, my father’s family are unwilling to help my mother’s family (they rarely do) and they also rarely met each other. My family’s economy is so-so, but even then, i still feel that i’m ultimately being a burden.

I have considered hanging, using a “drop table” And a “spesific knot” To make the hanging as quick as possible (following the community rule, i won’t elaborate further on the techniques). I also considering leaving a letter, a “sorry” and an explanation : That i’m doing this so that my family don’t have to suffer by having me. That they’ll be better off without me.

Well, that’s my story, i hope there’ll be other people here that willing to share their stories, thanks for reading these long paragraphs.