I ended up telling my guy friend of like 5yrs now, that i love him, last night via txt. Its not uncommon for me to tell him the L word cuz he knows i do and usually he laughs it off or changes the subject. But this time was different. Still didnt get a response. I only felt like it was right to say it. Because the last 2 times we talked on the phone there was awkwardness n some dead air towards the end of our conversation nd it felt like 1 of us was tempted to say the l word before sayin bye. It was just that kind of vibe that i was gettin. So i felt like i should just say it because im a risk taker.
Eh idk maybe im just overthinking it like i always do. But i know for sure i didnt scare him off cuz our conversations have no limits, we have talked about anything n everything. From controverstial topics, to theories, to sex, to random ramblings when our mental illness takes the wheel n steers lol thats the best thing i luv about him. We can say whatever and not feel the need to hold back and we work through things if the topic hits our feels alil too much.
When we 1st met it was during our 7wk training and we hit it off so well that other people thought we were married or atleast already a couple lol thats the kind of person u wanna be with. Where it feels like u known eachother for a long time when u 1st meet. Right?
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Well done!! That took guts and shows confidence.
Judging from this post you 2 sound quite close so I wish you well on this one. I like to hear of ppl taking action on SP, not ruminating, but action.
Thanks. Best part of bein a risk taker is u got nuthin to lose but u hope u gain somethin at some point
So it feels like you’re dating but you’re not dating.. that phase can last a long time. It can be hard to be patient. And to not let your emotions drive yourself crazy. I suppose he’s not quite ready or certain yet.
But just having him that close to you is nice. Are you okay with the 2 of you being just as you are? At least for a while? Be there for him as much and as best as you can! Remember that he’s worth waiting for.
Yea im fine with what we have. I wouldnt give up our friendship for anything in the world. He responded to my love you txt with his own introverted type of response which was super long but i speak his language so i know what he wrote meant he loved me too lol itd just be nice if 1 day instead of a writing a whole paragraph, he could simply just say I love you too