switches and memory gaps

there’s nothing more terrifying than returning to your body only to realize that hours have passed and you can’t remember anything that happened during that time period.  being co-conscious and watching an alter take the front when I’m trying to do something important is the most frustrating shit.  i’m the host.  i don’t like relinquishing control of the front (not like I have a fucking choice) because i am in control the majority of the time.  the worst part is that the particular alter that keeps taking the front is RARELY co-conscious so she literally just jumps in for 20 minutes, has no idea what the fuck is going on, and goes away for however long.