You’re real. Maybe you’re out of synch, as opposed to what you feel. Maybe you just can’t find the right gear. But you’re real, as real as the rest of us dysfunctional, spiritually and psychologically damaged persons. I despise myself because of all my perceived flaws, yet others see my non-flaws and call me “a good person.” You are as much a person as me and the next guy. Its how you perceive yourself and your ensuing actions that leave you feeling as an un-person.