It’s gotten to a point where I literally witness my abuser’s mannerisms manifesting in those I talk to because I’ve internalized their neurotic energy so deeply. I see the dynamic between my mom and I play out in real time between me and strangers. I recreate that dynamic. My mother has crawled inside my body. And made me a clone of herself. And now she seeks to make more clones of herself. I’m contaminated. And I’m contaminating others.