Do what you want. Do what makes you happy.
Take these meds.
But these meds dont make me happy…
Logically I know but…
Is it really about what you want or what’s right?
It’s right to not cut. It’s right to not drink yourself into a stupor. It’s right to eat 3 meals a day. It’s right to not get high.
How can it be about what I want, about what makes me happy, when I have rules and guidelines to follow in life?
Dont get me wrong, I dont disagree with them. Its just following them, for me anyway, has taken away what I feel is myself. Not because I want to get high or drunk or whatever, but because you say I have an option and you only give me one choice. Its not that I dont want to take that choice, but because I feel like if i do, im just agreeing with what everyone else wants, which might not be what I want. And then the 2 wants get lost and twisted in a tornado of thoughts and… I dont know what I want anymore.
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You’re just making it more complicated than it should be. Fuck the rules and do whatever makes you happy
it really doesnt work that way. people seem to think everything is just so simple but it really isnt, it never is.