You are actually ahead of the game if you can know a psychotic episode from within one. I’ve had exactly one that I know about, it lasted a few weeks, and when I came too I still didn’t think it had been real. It felt like being in a dream state, nothing made sense, absurd cameos of people who have left my life kept showing up.
I’ve felt the lead up to it a few more times. It is just that every time I get near there, thought wise, I stop everything and reground myself in this shitshow reality. I hadn’t read your posts until this, but I went back and got caught up. It sounds like a rough ride, but it also appears that you are somewhat successfully masking? If so, good for you, that’s a trick sometimes eh? If not, I’m sorry, me either.
Make sure you eat and try to sleep. Work towards those things, any and every trick should be tried. The best trick I know for food is the milk trick. You start by drinking a glass of milk any time you feel hungry. Then sometimes after awhile you’ll want something more, then you eat bread, cheese or peanut butter is a decent choice after that. Then back to normal food.
For sleep, take whatever you can to slow down your thinking, and lower your body temperature. Take a bath. Eat some turkey. Warm milk is nice. Watch something entirely innocent to the point it is difficult to follow. Alcohol has been mixed luck for me, sometimes it makes me sleepy, other times it won’t let me sleep.
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I can’t imagine what you are going through, reality is such a fragile thing.
Why are you in the suicide project though?
Read about my past posts. Long story short, it’s a shit show.
You are actually ahead of the game if you can know a psychotic episode from within one. I’ve had exactly one that I know about, it lasted a few weeks, and when I came too I still didn’t think it had been real. It felt like being in a dream state, nothing made sense, absurd cameos of people who have left my life kept showing up.
I’ve felt the lead up to it a few more times. It is just that every time I get near there, thought wise, I stop everything and reground myself in this shitshow reality. I hadn’t read your posts until this, but I went back and got caught up. It sounds like a rough ride, but it also appears that you are somewhat successfully masking? If so, good for you, that’s a trick sometimes eh? If not, I’m sorry, me either.
Make sure you eat and try to sleep. Work towards those things, any and every trick should be tried. The best trick I know for food is the milk trick. You start by drinking a glass of milk any time you feel hungry. Then sometimes after awhile you’ll want something more, then you eat bread, cheese or peanut butter is a decent choice after that. Then back to normal food.
For sleep, take whatever you can to slow down your thinking, and lower your body temperature. Take a bath. Eat some turkey. Warm milk is nice. Watch something entirely innocent to the point it is difficult to follow. Alcohol has been mixed luck for me, sometimes it makes me sleepy, other times it won’t let me sleep.