Jesus Christ just a week ago I tried to off myself and now I got a new job. I thought this job would be fun and give me a reason or hope to keep living but it’s more or less of the same. It’s fucking exhausting and my anxiety level is at an eleven. I’m scared and weak and afraid I can’t do this and I should give up and just die. I’m wasting my youth, I have no idea where I’m heading in life and I’m a failure. I have a good soul and try so hard to be a good person but it’s not worth it. I’m not worth it.
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You’re not a failure. Uncertainty is normal, I’m there myself in my own life.
I hope things get better for you in your job thingy- at least you’re trying… What about it stressed you out?
Im completely introverted and talking to people is extremely difficult and scares the hell outta me. Especially when I’m forced into a position of doing so. Then I begin choke up and afraid I might have a panic attack.
i just applied for a new job and i’m kinda annoyed about having to talk to people cause i’m introverted too. but i don’t have anxiety so i can’t relate to being scared of it. it’s understandable though. hopefully the first person you talk is nice and puts you at ease a little bit when it comes to strangers