Damn…

I’m sorry for your pain. I often want to go too… tired of myself too. that would be horrible to finally go and then get stuck in an afterlife with the same feelings. I don’t believe that, but I also can never seem to do it. I do like life…i just hate the deep pain. SOmetimes when i am heading that way…before the feelings and actions consume me, i try to just do one positive thing or thing that feels tolerable. Then I try to do another. I let go of all the things I am supposed to be doing…and I just survive, from one thing to the next. Til I feel just a little tiny bit better… I hope you stay.