of course i have friends, they care about me very, very much! they helped me out when my brother was being abusive, they stood beside me when my ex was stalking me! why do i think they don’t give a shit about me? what’s wrong with me?
i wish i can hug them all! but they’re all online.. i wish i can stop thinking like no one cares about me. people do, i’m lucky to have people like that in my life! ..even if i can’t touch them, even if i can’t fully express my gratitude to them because i’m horrible at expressing my feelings.. my only fear is that they will outgrow me.. i know they all are going to grow up and forget about me.. and i’m scared..
i love my friends.. why do i act like this?
i haven’t hurt myself in a long time, even though i’ve had really serious suicidal thoughts. im glad.. i don’t want to make anyone worried.
i still feel lonely, but it’s the lack of physical touch. i like showing my love through touch, and when the time comes, i’ll cook for all my friends and hug them dearly.
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Ask your friends to meet up in person and I’m sure they would love to! You’re just overthinking and you shouldn’t place your self worth in how strongly others view you. I don’t even have online friends to talk to if that makes you feel better. If anything, I care for you and we can be friends
in one of my friend groups, we are all warm to the idea. almost all of us live in the same country, it’s.. only the matter of growing up and actually planning, getting money, etc.. i’ve only ever met one of my friends before though, it was very fun! we went to an arcade and ate some ramen together.
im prone to overthinking, its just my anxiety, i know that. it gets tiring when your brain is suspicious about people even liking me. but having people to talk to and having people that like me are amazing.
im honored to have been offered another friendship, especially by you! if you wish to chat more, ill drop some media down. email or discord is favorable, but email is to ensure your anonymity if that makes you feel more comfortable, rick.
(I like your pfp, by the way. i know its randomly generated, but i cant help but look at it and picture a silly little robot dude)
whats your discord