I recently got a reminder that I am actually doing an amazing job, quantifiably amazing in terms of productivity, money, and good old fashioned balls, but it’s not enough and it’s certainly not saving me from an impending catastrophe you can’t imagine.
It’s so fucked up to know you’re literally doing the best job, better than anyone else could ever hope to pull off, and it’s still worth nothing. Like being in some sports competition where you’re scoring every point that can possibly be scored, and yet somehow you’re still so fucking far behind that you know you can’t win. What’s the point? Really what’s the point when the game is so stacked against you that you can’t win?