Today I woke up feeling great. I have been getting accupuncture and it finally started working. I was date raped 6 months ago and contraced genital warts as a result. It finally cleared up. Felt so good, went dancing with friends. I was completely sober, just dancing and having fun. This guy tries to dance wih us and we move away. All night he keeps bugging us, we ignore him the tell him to leave us alone. He goes and gets his friends. They surround us and contined to harass us. The guy gets in my face. I tell him to leave us alone. I am so mad I am shaking. I try to get the bouncer who is nowhere to be found. The guy’s friends back off but he comes back and gets in my face, taunting me, scratches my face enouh to draw blood. I flip out, my friends hold me back and he guy walks away but comes back again. My arms are pinned by my friend so I kick the dude as hard as i can. Feeling so powerless triggered the trauma i went through and i felt so violated and scared. I had to protect myself this time. So i did. I’m not a violent or angry person and I feel horrible that i hurt someone (even if he deserved it). I’m feeling really bad right now. I didn’t get hurt, arrested or thrown out or anything so I know it could have been worse but I still feel like shit. Why do people have to fucking ruin someone elses happiness? Don’t know if I’ll be able to get any sleep. I’m scared that guy is gonna find me and do something to me.
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first off, that guys not going to find you, no worries. but honestly, people suck. I’ve accepted that fact. majority of people are selfish and really only care about themselves… but doesn’t mean that’s everybody. Sounds like you’ve just ended up with some bad luck. But honestly, you’re stronger than most. You stood up to that a-hole, and you should be proud for that! You were right in this situation. Ya, the world kinda sux sometimes, but honestly, there is a lot of good, and its worth the bad. Yes, you have had some bad experiences… very bad ones from the sound of it… but don’t give up. You never know when your luck is going to change
Wow that is awful. What a total and complete jerk that guy was. Trust me the whole place saw that he was harassing women. That’s why his friends backed off. They knew he was not acting right. It makes sense that this would trigger the rape that you went through. It’s really not your fault. It’s more like you had a PTSD reaction. I am so sorry that this happened especially after you woke up in such a good mood. That’s scary to worry that he may come after you. Does he know where you live?
Hey good on ya. I dint th ink you should feel b ad. The dude drew first blood. Litterally. I would have done more than just kick im. You were right to do so. There is nothing wrong with defending yourself. Ever.
You did fine! Kick him again.
if you ever get back to your post violet…..just to let you know if you don’t already….the warts are caused by a virus…..even if the warts are gone….the virus may remain….can’t remember which HPV it is 6 or 11 i believe….just suggesting you may want to add an anti-viral such as olive leaf extract….make sure you kill the bug….
as to the other…..you behaved much better than I would have….but now….let it go…..dont be afraid…..what’s he gonna do???….kill you???…..not likely
imo the abuse is not the problem….it’s the self-abuse afterwards…sorry just got the feeling this wasnt the first time you have been violated….and I’m sorry i can’t promise it will be the last time…..but…..rise above….don’t fall into it…..just because someone else laid an emotional trap for you…..doesn’t mean you have to step on it over and over and over…..lol….preaching over….tell the guy in the dress he can have his pulpit back…..lol
oh yeah….and if the guy ever gets in your face again…..go for the solar plexus…..humiliation is even better…..he’ll be on his knees crying, gasping for air and puking….mental picture….oh yeah….and as you’re walking away….spit at him for extra effect…i said at him not on him…..that is a crime….lol
in the end…..you did not deserve what happened to you…
Namaste
the guy is a douchebag … and a bully … and bullies don’t go after people who fight back – because they are cowards. But not all people are bad – in fact – the majority of people are good and decent.
please don’t let a few assholes shake your faith in the general decency of society. .
all the best
hopeful dawg