maybe–
but my girlfriend got me a souvenir. and herself edible vanilla body shimmer. her eyes are so beautiful when I stare into them–
i can’t kill myself when she does that–
but oh the dysphoria…the horrifying circles when I close my eyes; my favorite songs now haunting beasts– how can I deal with that?
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The irony, if there was no God then I would kill myself. I do not want to start a debate with you. Personally I only wrote that for relief. I don’t know how you can deal with that. I’d suggest patience… It helped me when I struggled with dizziness and dots that I see in front of my eyes.
If that’s your choice, I’d say “keep applying liberal amounts of edible vanilla body shimmer everywhere on her” 🙂 Take the gift she is offering to you. I have some other things I would say, especially in light of your tasty, beautiful “she”, but I don’t know how your sense of humor runs….
If there was a god, I’d kill it. Or try my best to beat it almost to death.
Is your condition natural or are you on any medications?
Any injuries or strain on your head or eyes?