Wasted

So much potential, wasted. So much. In me, in you, in all of us. We are capable of so much, but life just keeps getting in the way, people keep trying to stop us, all I want is to do something worthwhile in my life before I cut it short but nobody gives me the opportunity, I have spent the last few weeks just devouring math and physics books because it makes me fill like I’m worth something, perhaps it’s a new addiction to replace the cutting and burning and oxy and cigs but just like all those other things it doesn’t feel the emptiness or eliminate my desire to die because I am incapable of healing, incapable of love, so I shall continue to live this mundane life of folly and hope that I stumble upon someone who will love me enough to help me out of this even though everyone else in my life has given up on me.