4 days past from the time were saw each other. Nothing changed. The same cold, formal and painfull for me messages.
I still don’t understand.
Some people can do everything to get such love as i give.. I gave everything to him.. I took care of him. I love him every day. I support him in each step. I am always giving all attention. Telling compliments. Cooked all the time. Made him laugh. Had the best sex he ever had – wild, hot, like 6 times a day. Every day & night when we are together. His all friends and family loves me. Especialy family. I am beautiful with perfect body and smart – Master diploma, good future. I am funny & kind. I’m sexy. Can have any guy i want. I helped him when he was totally fucked up. I even didn’t make career when i had, just to be with him.
He used to tell me that i’m his Only one. Dreammy girl. Future wife. Every day dreamming about kids and marriage. He used to tell to my eyes that he Loves me. Called me every day, kept writting me every minute. Not only sms, Love letters. He told to all world that he loves me. He promised he will never hurt me.He even wrote for me a Love Book…
So why he hurts me so bad that i am crying 4 days?! First time i cry for a guy.
And all of those things changed by totally ignorance..
I told that his behavour hurts me a lot and i asked don’t do it anymore, because i can’t stand it alone.. I think those words made everything worst. He doesn’t have any problems now in life to be depressed – perfect weekend with family & friends, goig back to job…
Nobody can give me advice – time will fix everything. Divorce or Keep Loving – Time.
But how to stop tachycardia, waiting, not sleeping, being nervous, tears, not eating anymore, not smilling and waiting..
WHY GUYS SOMETIMES BEING SO ASSHOLES?! I am sorry, but it is like that.
How to cut my heart out? I’d love to feed it to dogs.
I’m scorpio – when i love – i give myself 100%. I guess it was the last time i trusted someone…..
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of course i don’t know you or the situation, but if you’re as awesome as you say you are, then fuck him!
if he screwed up, then he’ll deal with it sooner or later.
in the meantime (and no, you shouldn’t let him back in to your life if he was such an ass!) back to you. what do you like to do? go do it.
and i wouldn’t recommend removing your own heart unless you’re trained in that field.
feel free to shout/scream if you need to. while you listen to some music that calms you down.
maybe i’m crazy, i honestly figure that i am, but such a girl doesn’t need a dude. especially a lame ass one. if you just want someone to take care of, come take care of me, or go get a pup from the pound, i’m sure you can find one that you’re googly eyed over. my dog butt may be the best eighty dollar purchase i’ve Ever made.
but try to look up, metaphorically. beautiful girls that don’t show their beautiful smiles always make me sad. i’m thinking dog butt may be your best bet. you deserve a loving companion.
but damn i think i love that scorpio passion.
i know.. everything what u say is so true. I never gave a fuck about guys so much. I always tell them that i love myself more than them, but this time i felt he was the fucking one. Like i was so tired of all those love and when he showed up i was on fire so much.
Damn.
Took bromazepam, maybe pain will be less :]
I just told him that i give him all the space he wants, like i set him free. I’m not that person who gonna pray attention.
If he comes back – its mented. If not – fuck all promises.
I bet its easier to be lesbian.. or hore.
Sometimes it’s like that. It’s so, so unfair, but sometimes there is no reason, you are perfect, but it just doesn’t work. Thinking to much about it will send you crazy. You did the right thing, set him free. Doesn’t matter what happens, you can have confidence that you did the right thing, head held high.
well, first step made – bromazepam works 😀 and i made him talk.. it will be interesting here!!!!
We have talked..
He shown me that i made everything complicated, that he didnt realise all these problems here and now i made him disappoint myself again. 🙁
Now i feel much more better about us, but hating myself so much.
I have PMS, its a moonlight and the distance and winter.. and i am lonely here.
Ah who can tell me when this all hell ends?
I need to go to job, there i feel good. At home im not stable anymore..
and with my behavour i will lose him ..
Who can hit my head to wall to shake brain?