What do you want me to tell you people? i just dont like myself and who would like me for what i do? who would like a lier?  in general i dont like my body, the way i dress, the way i take desisions, my whole way of  thinking, the way i talk, laugh, act … thats preatty much everything right? ive got parents that dont want me to look the way i want to take desisions or even speak up… im supposed to be a doll right? is that the way life is going? to shutup and listen and obey?  also people cant have their own style otherwise they get judged? Fuck That??!
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Yikes, do not post your photo here! I think you might be a drama junkie.
drama junkie whats that?
@ctb: …
There has to be something you like about yourself – or at least others like? If you can’t think, well keep thinkin’. GoodGirl posted on mine to at least tell yourself that you’re a decent human being. Also, why do you call yourself a liar?
Meh, you’re not expected to be a doll – and if people say they do expect that, well screw ’em.
Some things you may have little say, like school and maybe somethings you should obey – but doesn’t mean you have to be a puppet…
As for style…-shrug-
i dont know im not proud of myself for everything and i call myself a liar cause i invente stories to get myself out of things i also lie to my friends… i dont know why i just feel like it i also do stupid things (aint gonna go in details…) im able to accept the fact that i have to continue school tosurvive have a good job cash whatever right? but things like decisions on my style things i want to do ex: guitar courses well im not allowed really my parents gt to decide so… i feel like a pupet cause if i dont ”follow the society” i will bring shame apon my familly … so i guess i have to be a pupet to have a smile on my face
Heh, well who doesn’t lie to get out of things? Or the lie to friend? Might want to find out more why you feel the need to lie to people( well other than obvious reasons ).
Aye, got to hate the real world eh? School, work, etc. But it’s what we do to get by – and so I’m glad you can accept school.
I guess the thing to do for guitar is just try to teach yourself? Tabs, videos, etc. I guess the thing to hope is after school and you’re free( as I think U.N. has put in his post ) you can take more in depth guitar lessons or something. Go with what you think is right, don’t need to stay as societies puppet. Bleh, the whole societies puppet thing is eh, just plainly don’t worry about it if possible. There’s something to be said for the right thing, but I mean if your family expects you do be who you’re not or bend over backwards to please them, well they got another thing comin’
lol XD your last sentence made me smile i hope they dont have a lot of expectations because i am not the angel they want then
Aye, well no one expects you to be perfect per se. No one is REALLY perfect exactly. But I’m sure you’re perfect they way you are, well except for the hurting…:/
Don’t be too hard on yourself…