If you decide to die, Know I’ll pray for your soul. I love and accept you for whoyou are even if the world thinks you are negative or strange!!

Hi Nia,I’m Ella. I just wanted to tell you you aren’t alone! I love you sister! I’ll pray for you. I know it’s so hard sometimes.everybody wonders why God allows bad things to happen. but I’ve just come to accept that(no matter what you believe,I think everyone will agree with this) we don’t have the brain capacity to understand. Job is a book in the bible that is really hard to read,because it’s hard to understand and God seems cruel sometimes. but I think the message is just that-we can’t comprehend why God does what he does. Can you imagine trying to explain something to a goldfish? that’s what it would be like if God tried to explain everything to us. we just don’t have the ability to understand,and won’t be able to until after we’re dead. but I believe God is love,and he proved it by sending Jesus to die for us even though we didn’t deserve it. alot of people ask me how I can believe even though certain things have happened to me in my life,but i always ask them-how is God any less God because of where I am??we have to have faith and trust him,that he never leaves us,no matter what is happening in our lives. i have a lot of valid reasons for believing in Jesus(my best friend is brilliant and also agnostic,lol,so theres been quite a few discussions) and I’m here for you if you ever want to talk about anything. i know how you feel about being awkward too.:P but we have to stay strong and help as many people as we can.:) i’m here for you okay? love ya!-Ella