Hi.. my history is not really about suicide, but i went very close to that, and sometimes i still think about it, but i know i wont succeed.
Sorry for my english, my main lenguague is portuguese, and i’ll try my best here to express my feelings, or whatever this is.
I mean i dont feel nothing about the world, i dont feel nothing, really, i just try to picture myself in every kind of life and i just dont get excited about anything, i look around and i picture big zeros, like nothing matters.
Everything can happen to me, that i wont care.
I get angry all the time about myself because i feel this way, like nothing is a deal.
If i could just be in the middle of the unniverse and stand there to the end, i would be ok.
I’m sorry if i didnt express well, but that’s what is going on with me.
Everything is nothing at all to me. After getting this “feeling” i dont know how to take it away.
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What you feel is depression and a lot of people feel this way. I have felt this way far too much in my life. It’s OK, sometimes it’s situational, if your far from your home and don’t have a lot of people around that alone can start to cause depression. Sometimes its medical. That’s not to say you have to take a pill for the rest of your life but maybe for a little while to get you back on your feet. If you are worried about the cost of medication many cities have assistance programs for mental health. I am so sorry you have to feel this and it makes me hurt thinking about the struggle you must be feeling. I wish you luck and it may seem like there is no end but if you fight it you will find the light at the end of the tunnel.
Hi rafygania,
I know how you feel because I often feel the same myself. I’ve reached the point that I try not to worry or get angry that I feel this way.
I know it wouldn’t be good for me to think this negatively for the rest of my life, but I think it’s OK to feel this way for a while, especially if it gives me time to decide what I’m going to do about it.
Thank you guys, i would make my possible, but as usual.. i dont know if i’ll get it!
Thanks btw!