Hello. I am a 15 year old High School student. My parents only punish me. No one likes me. Every girl i try to talk to rejects me and laughs in my face. Almost all of my friends use me. I think im the ugliest person ever to exist. I am the most average person. I have nothing to contribute to the world. I am looking for a way out.
I have tried cutting myself, but I am a coward and I can not cut deep enough. I have tried hanging myself but the rope broke and it was very painful for the seconds i was choking out. I have tried to O.D. but I just threw the pills up.
At this point I have nothing to live for.
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I think we’re twins.
I like you.
I don’t know you on a deep personal level, but… I guess I sort of do. Pain and commiseration go hand-in-hand, yeah?
Perhaps you don’t fit in at your school because you are an individual. People fear that which is unlike them.
And if you don’t think that is true, then you still have a 21-year old sommat in Connecticut who will listen while you explain why.
Hello young boy,
well, understanding that you are feeling pretty down, the good news is that your case is one of the best to look optimistically to.
You are now seeing everything from your 15 years, and at this age naturally the personality has not been built. Thus, one would say that your own self-esteem depends on what other kiddies around say or do. At this age, all kids are cruel to others, what they do is try to ridiculize others or mock on them so that they can feel that they are above the other person, basically setting their personalities at the expenses of putting others down. Obviously, that tells you that each and every asshole that has been doing that to you is automatically inferior to you. Take that for granted. Do not argue this point.
Girls at this age are like that, they laugh, they giggle even if they like you. And then you make your own interpretations.
You have to talk to yourself and make the mindset that you do not depend on them, keep on telling them whatever you want, but dont look like you are begging them for something, look cool, be cool, and stand cool at whatever you say. If you go and tell them “I like your bum and I want to take a nap on it”., When they say “the whaaaaaaaaaaaaat?_)+_+
you repeat cool, ” I said that I like your bum and that I want to take a nap on it” I want to put my cheek on your bum while you lie in the Sun.
This is an example of sticking firm to what you say. Girls will notice if you are sure of yourself or if you are hesitant. Dont make them think you are ***** saying, “hi can I talk to you?” NO! never be Mr Softie nice shy guy! be cool. “In Russia we say, “ot borot poborot” that is, one door closes, other opens. If she rejects you, tell the same thing to the girl next to her, better in her presence.
Girls are attracted by great looking guys, granted, BUT, also guys who are cool, and sure of themselves, exert a magic attraction on them.
So, young man, dont you even mention to yourself things like cutting or hurting yourself, no way! On the contrary! do work on your personality, take little steps every week and even write down your progresses. A strong personality is built with effort, with small battles won everyday.
best greetings and cheers mate!
I’m sorry your pain is so profound. I’m glad you posted. It’s odd how it can help to have a place to speak the truth…not just casually mention that you feel blah but that you’ve tried and you’ve tried more than once and you want to try again. I’m glad you said what you did!!
There are a lot of people on here who have been exactly where you are! And, from the best I can tell, no one is going to minimize what you feel…it is real, prolific, and absolutely horrible!
Please keep sharing!
The ugly duckling story comes to mind here. You are way to young to be finished growing and changing into the adult you will be. It is unfortunate that Hollywood looks have so much control on the lives of American citizens. A guy who is interested a good listener and who takes care of himself is awfully attractive at around 30. The smooth operators are eventually found out for their easy conquests. Remember the diamond is formed through much pressure. Don’t even worry about it, do your best to find yourself a good career and the rest will fall into place, you’ll see.