I dont know why but all of sudden ive felt a lot of guilt about attempting suicide. This has never happened to me before. But now ive started thinking of my family. Not friends or anyone else but my family. Specifically my mom see her friend is dying of cancer and it seems like killing myself would just weight to heavily on her. But i have pills stored up and ready i just cant kill myself right now it wouldnt be right. But at the same time im tired of living. If i die there will be no more death no more suffering. At the same time this guilt of leaving my family puts me at a dilema and i dont know what to do
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I get you. I feel the same way. I feel like it would destroy them but I feel like its destroying me to be here… :/
This is normal and definitely not a bad thing
you’ve gained more awareness about what you’re really about to do
it could also be a sign a tiny part of you isn’t ready to give up on life, maybe you still have some curiosity left
just my 2 cents