My raging emotions

Me I will tell you in all honesty that I have serious anger problems and I am saddened  by it. I have always tried to keep my anger on the inside cause

I believe it would hurt more if I display it on the outside.  I lately though have discovered that my anger has more control over me then I do. It’s

scary for me to type that but it’s true. I have only had one girlfriend and as of today I am stopping with any form of communication with her. I broke up with her because she wanted to choose between me and her ex who is abusive towards her.  I hate choices cause whenever I’m involved with them

I lose. I could not stand to see her choose him over me so I just ended it. She is back with him now. I tried being friends but that didn’t work out cause her boyfriend does not want her talking to me and she gets aggressive with me cause of it.  I thought she would be different then everyone else. I thought she would be the one person who treats me like a person and not like some animal. Me I have lost alot of hope for the human race in general. They are very cold people who don’t give a damn unless the situation involves them. My anger level  is skyrocketing right now and if it continues I am not sure what I am going to do. Day after day I slowly and gradually lose myself  mentally.  I have given up on love as it is pointless for a man who looks like me to hope for.  I had my first meltdown while back and I wound up breaking stuff. I just have so much stuff in my head and I am giving up fighting for it cause it is just to much to bare. I just have raging emotions with no one to share or settle them with cause no one cares.