damb,why do people decide to give you reasons to trust them until you trust them enough just to the point you are actually thinking(you know what, i might feel like i trust this person, mabey they aint fake after all)then they go and pull the same shit everyone els does, and people wonder why i am the way i am,its always the people you least expect,so why trust anyone in this world,my heart just got as cold as it can get,i had a little love left in my heart after 21 years,but now i literally feel nothing,   last night i was praying to god(if my life is gonna get better then please give me a sign not to kill my self)it was fucked up, for a second, i felt an overload of happyness, i could actually feel again,then right away someone i was begining to trust, just let me down, i never though they would do what everyone els did,and after that, i went back to feeling nothing again,not everyomne believes in a god,but just because you believe something or dont believe something,doesnt mean its true,people dont realize there beliefes aint facts,its there perception and opinion,but i cant afford to not believe in anything,even if my prayers aint answered anymore,untill you die, you wil never know were you go,
this is not enough.
but every time i’m let down by people i try to remind myself that i often led down people too…when do i REALLY now what is going on with the people around me? no one knows how i really feel. how many people do truelly know how YOU feel? i quess just as many of your friends could be depressed as you, and you probably wouldn’t have a clue…i know life is more complicated than that…but try not to be too harsh on the peoople around you…they’re only human, as you are.
ok , im sorry but people have been hard on me my entire life,i have had to even fight for my own life when my mom tried to drown me in a bathtub wen i was only 9 years old, and im sapost to be easy on her?you dont even know what people have done to me, if you knew how shitty the people around me are, you would think the opposite,and be sick of people to,only humane doesnt give someone the right to hurt you tramedisiouly in every way possible,is hitler only humane to? so that gave him the right to kill all those people,if you dont know what i have to put up with and the beatings i got every day and the torcher of being starved and raped every night wen every one knew yet did nothing, then you should really not tell me to be easy on people,only being humane doesnt give people that right.
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this is not enough.
but every time i’m let down by people i try to remind myself that i often led down people too…when do i REALLY now what is going on with the people around me? no one knows how i really feel. how many people do truelly know how YOU feel? i quess just as many of your friends could be depressed as you, and you probably wouldn’t have a clue…i know life is more complicated than that…but try not to be too harsh on the peoople around you…they’re only human, as you are.
ok , im sorry but people have been hard on me my entire life,i have had to even fight for my own life when my mom tried to drown me in a bathtub wen i was only 9 years old, and im sapost to be easy on her?you dont even know what people have done to me, if you knew how shitty the people around me are, you would think the opposite,and be sick of people to,only humane doesnt give someone the right to hurt you tramedisiouly in every way possible,is hitler only humane to? so that gave him the right to kill all those people,if you dont know what i have to put up with and the beatings i got every day and the torcher of being starved and raped every night wen every one knew yet did nothing, then you should really not tell me to be easy on people,only being humane doesnt give people that right.
i will never be easy on someone who hurs me repeatidly in any way,