I know a lot of people get all emotionally steamed when people say that suicide is ‘the cowards way out’. It is a horrible thing to say about someone especially  when people who have never attempted suicide could not possibly know the hurt a person can go through for no reason whatsoever other than because we exist. But I think the truth is that it is the cowards way out. I wouldn’t be considering it at all if it didn’t seem so much easier than living and truth be told life is just so much more fucking scary than the worst horror film you can remember from your childhood. Is being scared really so bad? So unwise?
I don’t know why but it seems so much easier to plan it now that I have accepted that I am a coward. All pretenses gone I guess, what use has a coward for fighting. No doubt I was always destined to be found hiding under a table and defeated. It seems so pointless that I have lived this long.
3 comments
Lets look at this from the other side – another perspective.
If you stay on, fight and try to survive but things do not get better and the pain is still there all the time and cripples your life, are you then considered a hero for staying? Is it brave to stay alive and spend the rest of your life in pain?
I do not know the correct answer to all of this, all I know is that suicide is not a cowards way out, simply a way out from feeling the pain in ones life. A way that will end that pain. It is a permanent solution, but a solution nonetheless. To think about suicide and want to die and actually trying is a big step too that takes a lot.
Suicide is not a cowardly thing, in my opinion. I read somewhere that suicide is what happens when the pain overcomes the means of coping and dealing with pain. Even the strongest have a breaking point and sometimes just getting by is no longer enough for some people. Suicide feels more like a release than anything else, when I think about doing it I simply think of it like going to sleep forever and leaving it all behind for good.
Only you have the power to evaluate whether you want to continue physically & whether it’s of value. Who are these people that say it’s cowardly?…are they living your life? Do they know what it is to be you? Do these people really know what death (croaking) is? Are they basing their perception from fear or out of love and compassion? It’s a choice, plain and simple…your choice…It’s neither cowardly nor brave…when we leave judgement out of it, it allows room for acceptance. Life is a test full of lessons and we can not get it wrong…you were created perfectly and that truth remains, no matter where you are in your journey…everyone does their best…There is only life in the physical or non-physical…It takes courage to make a decision, especially with respect to our existence…. people choose to focus on the negative than on the positive so that’s why there’s so much difficulty with this subject. I truly wish you well with wherever your journey takes you. Cheers!