im not shure and i honestly don’t care if anyone has written anything even remotely similar. my life doesn’t suck. yeah it has its moments. but no. i like my life.
but. im tired. thats all there is to it. there is nothing left for me here. i just feel like i am done here. i need to move on.
i got help for these suicide thoughs. but honestly. nothing worked. in the end of the therapy i pretended to be healthy. but… you cant fix someone when they are already dead inside.
some things are beyond therapy i guess.
im not old. im 18. and appear like everyone else. im just. not supposed to be here. my batteries are already worn out. i wont commit suicide. though i wish someone would run over me or i would just die right there and then. i dont care what people would think. my parents.God or my brother or sisters. im not re-chargeable. its not their foult. nor anyone elses. im just.. wrong.
please comment if you feel the same. i dont want to be alone.
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You’re not alone, I feel the same… Although there is a chance that i will attempt to commit…
Im totally the same. In a way my life is okay, but Im tired, just tired of everything. I know how you feel… I get depressed often and give up on things quite a lot. I have been trying to fight with it many times, watching videos, films, even some serious anime to help me understand life, and it did help. Like Neon Genesis Evangelion helped me a lot… Its just, it keeps coming back, and whatever I do It comes back and everything is all the same again.
Now when it happens I already think nothing will work so I dont even bother. I wont kill myself, but if something would kill me it would make no difference. I cant handle things and adult life scares me. Im 18 in few days. Yeah so nothing really matters, screw everything because whats the point. Tired of everything, everything makes me angry.
So so confusing, everything.
dead inside I never thought I too would be here today like this.
i also posted a long vent about my life, have a read and maybe youll feel better about yours? 🙂
same here…….also feel like I’ve tried everything there is in the therapy field. No, it didn’t work. have death wish everyday yet not courageous enough to kill myself. just hope that God listens and grand this wish come true somehow. no, actually it’s more desperate than that, I beg for death to come.
darknight. i to beg for death. i wont do it myself. not because im a coward but because i want to die honorable and with meaning. i dont wish my life was different. i dont wish to get another life. i wasn’t supposed to be here in the first place. i don’t belong here.
its so intense it makes me sick. its like a rash that never goes away. makes me wana puke. i respect life in every form. but mine is over. its like what they do when they kill of a charecter on tv shows. they have nothing more to give.
i don’t care if death is a dark cave or nothingness for all eternity. it beats the hell out of living. food depresses me. the fact that we got to eat to stay alive. and what does it matter if i die tonight or tomorow for that sake. we all die in the end. my road just skipped to the end alitle early. i’ve lived longer then i should have.
anotherdreamer il read your post. 😉
“i dont wish my life was different. i dont wish to get another life. i wasn’t supposed to be here in the first place. i don’t belong here.”
“my road just skipped to the end alitle early. i’ve lived longer then i should have. ”
same here .. I’ve been feeling this way for too long
your not. i was in the same position when i was 17.
ENJOY yor life right noww! cause after it’ll suck more
it gets harder than you can imagine