It never seems to cease. Is love too much to ask for?
Today my little brother cussed me out. I know I sound so selfish right now… but I got mad. Wanted to hit him. Really, really badly. I didn’t, but I’m an open book. My mom wanted to know what was going on, but I knew better. Every time we have a “talk”, it always ends with her yelling at me and both of us getting mad, except I have no outlet. She used to hit me when I was younger. I can’t talk back, or she’ll hit me more. Every single time she […]
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As Three Days Grace says, “I’d rather feel pain than nothing at all.”
I agree. Not just physical pain, but it seems as if I hurt myself emotionally with intent. For about three years now, my depression’s been going on and off, wavering. Sometimes I’ll feel incredibly ecstatic, and other times I’ll be locked up in my room, cutting away with my frenemy, X-Acto. But most of the time? The feeling of nothing. Tabula rasa. Now that I think about it, it’s kind of psychopathic. No empathy, no warmth, just… nothing.
I have tried calling the suicide hotline, only when I’m home alone, which isn’t for long. […]