I just want to scream. I hate myself. I’m clumsy, so I get hurt often, I’m not social, so I have no friends, I’m the shadow of someone I used to know, and honestly who could care about that. I feel so pathetic. You know someday it he’s so bad when I wake up I start rapidly shaking and tears are streaming out of my eyes for no reason until I almost puke even though I can’t feel the pain. I already plan on killing myself just waiting for when and how.
Happiness never lasts forever. why do I want to live if you never get to live a life where you can trust the good feeling that you have to stick around?
I honestly have no idea how to work this site, but truth is when I was little my dad tried to kill me and ended up in prison and beat my mom multiple times in front of me. Along with that I’ve been rejected my whole life because I’m quieter then other people. Then of course I fall in love being stupid and stuff so when that happened he was SO in love with another girl and never ceased to let me forget and left me inthe dust. So now I have anorexia, I cut, major depression, and have had suicide attempts. […]