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eh.

by 3_bringitback 3/14/2011

written by 3_bringitback

yeah, another post from me. I’m trying to quit cutting so you better get ued to me posting alot.

why are you doing this to me? how can you keep doing this? I’ve missed you so fucking much, I’ve NEVER stopped waiting. I waited an entire year for you to come back, doesn’t that deserve anything. or do you just not care. I know more about you than you think I do, and y’know what? next time you come online, I’m not going to pretend. I’m not going to say ‘he’s just come back, atleast give him a nice welcome.’ I’m going to act the way […]

3/14/2011 0 comment

no. not anymore

by 3_bringitback 3/14/2011

written by 3_bringitback

I’m not coming out, not now, not ever. everyones bi, it’s the new fucking fad. I’ll just be thought of as another one of those sheepy fucking scene whores, who do it because it’s ‘different’. well guess what you attention seeking little ingrates, you’ve made me hate myself. I’ve NEVER hated myself, I’m a good person, but now? now I just think to myself, ‘you’re disgusting. you’re one of them, just another scene whore.’

thanks for this. fucking fakers.

3/14/2011 6 comments

bleh.

by 3_bringitback 3/13/2011

written by 3_bringitback

I’ve just realised. they’re gonna be there for the rest of my life. forever. kinda wish I’d never done it now, but, maybe it’ll comfort me, knowing that I got through it. Or it’ll just remind me of the past.

I dunno. anyone else here regret it? or not regret it?

3/13/2011 19 comments

can’t do it.

by 3_bringitback 3/12/2011

written by 3_bringitback

How do you help someone who can’t be helped?

I care, far too much. It’s killing me, every time I try to help you, it pushes me further down this hole. But no, I won’t ever leave you behind. Ever. I’ll keep your head above the water, even if it means I drown.

You need to start walking, because. You’re just standing there, and so am I. We’re both not trying, well, you’re not trying. I’m pushing and pushing, but you won’t budge. There’s only so much I can do before I get exausted, and can’t even walk myself.

Please, please. Just try, I can’t keep doing this. […]

3/12/2011 7 comments

asdfgjk

by 3_bringitback 3/12/2011

written by 3_bringitback

HA. wow if my mom wasn’t in the house right now, I’d be dancing around the house drunk as, and covered in my own blood XDD singing at the top of my lungs Strawberry Gashes by Jack Off Jill.

I wish you’d never have messaged me, you make me die. infact no, you make me want to die.

3/12/2011 0 comment

I give up…

by 3_bringitback 3/12/2011

written by 3_bringitback

He sent me a message on MSN today…
My mom had also taken my laptop away…

He hasn’t been online since Febuary last year. I give up. Angelspit full blast, and my beautiful, shiny, metallic friend. It’s the only way.

3/12/2011 0 comment

aha xD

by 3_bringitback 3/12/2011

written by 3_bringitback

found another way to get me through this (: paracetamol. I OD’d last night, fell right to sleep.

Sorry Momzies, won’t let me have sleeping pills? I’ll just fuck up my liver instead. 8D

oh and btw. you should let me out last night. not only did I OD. I fucking carved my arm up nice and bloody, I got my first drip last night! ^^ the blood ran right down my arm. to bad my bedsheets red. ;D

3/12/2011 11 comments

bleh.

by 3_bringitback 3/9/2011

written by 3_bringitback

suicidal again. got a good week without ‘the thoughts’.

meh, who gives a shit.

‘I give a shit o.e’

well I wish you fucking showed it.

3/9/2011 4 comments

Roots.

by 3_bringitback 3/9/2011

written by 3_bringitback

each line of perfection
it makes me shake
makes me quiver
makes me crumble
every letter
it makes me yearn
makes me need
makes me cry

it’s simply devine
this utter hurt
can I prove it?
or is it just me

undescribable
unpresentable
unpredictable

I’ve sworn an oath
to never leave.
here I will stay
under this pink blossom tree
alone.
I’ll play with the immortal leaves
but I’ll never let them go.

I think it’ll be me here.
alone.
forever.

unfortunaltly, you’re sitting
under an identical tree.
but not the same tree.
never the same tree.
never the same.

3/9/2011 7 comments

Lizarde.

by 3_bringitback 3/8/2011

written by 3_bringitback

I try, not to cry, but why?
can I compare, my utter dispair, with yours to share?
what do I do, to control the thought of you.

what should I do. I do. I do.

3/8/2011 0 comment

never enough.

by 3_bringitback 3/8/2011

written by 3_bringitback

I’m running out of room, gonna need to buy some long sleeved shirts (:

3/8/2011 14 comments

walls. just walls.

by 3_bringitback 3/4/2011

written by 3_bringitback

this weekend was going to be great. I was going to go out with two of my very best friends, and smoke a little something something. I was going to have one of them stay over, their parents had even said yes, then, on sunday, I was going to go to a concert, have a great night, then go home, paint, and go to bed. It would have gotten me through weeks. just the memories of what a great few days it has been, showing me that it does get better.

‘No Ema! because you never do anything right so how the hell do you […]

3/4/2011 3 comments

I Giorni

by 3_bringitback 2/27/2011

written by 3_bringitback

can’t I just,
lay here
forever
with you
my invisable.
In audible words, unspoken.
but heard.
beaded with glossy notes
enforced to falter.

condencing, misting
I peer into my own heart
and I cry.

2/27/2011 0 comment

hm.

by 3_bringitback 2/27/2011

written by 3_bringitback

Reflection reflection
tell me your name
Perfection perfection
the apple of my eye

Glassy wisdom
with a touch of hope
A pencil creates the meaning
But the hand is the meaning

You’re future, my future
connect them like old fassioned phones
Two seperate things
but they hold the same thoughts

Capture the moment
like a little, sweet bird
softly, with cupped hands
Feel it’s heart beat.

Reflection reflection
tell me your name
Perfection perfection
the apple of my eye…

2/27/2011 0 comment

opinions change. but everything else stays the same.

by 3_bringitback 2/27/2011

written by 3_bringitback

I always used to think verbs used to describe pain were, quite frankly crap. ‘broken’, ‘dead’, ‘stunted’.

now I don’t.

2/27/2011 2 comments

another fucking blog about my friend

by 3_bringitback 2/25/2011

written by 3_bringitback

I miss him so fucking much. I feel like he’s dead! like I’m mourning of some bullshit. I don’t get it? I’ve been fine for like a year, and now? now I can’t stop fucking crying. I can’t stop clawing at my sides. I fucking cut…again! my friend keeps phoneing, but I’m not answering the phone.

I just want to talk to him, I just want him to come online. it’s bad enough I’m fucking depressed, I can’t sleep anymore, I can’t keep pictureing him touching me, my moms being a fucking *****, schools acting up. and now? now…

I miss him. I have contact […]

2/25/2011 0 comment

everyones best friend.

by 3_bringitback 2/24/2011

written by 3_bringitback

I stood there, stareing at my razor. taking in the light black coating stretched upon the sharpened edge. but then, a cold, wet nose brushed my fingers.

nobody knows how many times my dog has saved me. just by being there. more than anyone else can say.

I can barely sleep without that warm, soft fur at an arms length awat. or the gentle breathing.

<3 Gayol, my best friend.

2/24/2011 4 comments

Peices.

by 3_bringitback 2/24/2011

written by 3_bringitback

I found his dA, just by browseing.

I fucking cried when I saw his name. I miss him so much, he was such a great friend. I didn’t understand back then, what it meant, to be him. I do now. I AM him.

I just want things back the way the where. I can’t handle this I really fucking can’t. kitty NEEDS her iggy. kitty needs someone who UNDERSTANDS.

kitty needs you.

2/24/2011 8 comments

.

by 3_bringitback 2/23/2011

written by 3_bringitback

It just hit me…

I’ve never gotten a birthday card from my dad.

that really hurts.

2/23/2011 4 comments

I know now.

by 3_bringitback 2/21/2011

written by 3_bringitback

I’m happy, I really truly happy :3 I feel like 3 years ago.

Oh and I’m stoned off of two 6 inch joints xD I now know how to fix this.

2/21/2011 5 comments

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