I got new pills and they make me happier than I have ever been lately. They also help me sleep, they are miracle workers… They are called Valerian root and they also help anxiety. Tomorrow is the first day using them at school, so I will see how that goes.
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wish me luck! lol jk I don’t need luck.
I am a 15 Female and skateboarding is amazing. I find so stress relieving, and if you want to try it, I think it might really help you out. I ride pretty good, and I am trying to learn to ollie. I am also getting pretty good at my manual. I hope to one day know a few tricks. 🙂
I keep telling myself they love me, but in the back of my mind my brain is telling me no they don’t. Maybe that’s why i’m suicidal? I dunno. I just wish I could be happy, but it is as if my body won’t let me. Sigh. I’m sure no one will read this, no one ever seems to notice me. Just like all my other cries, this will sink down into the abyss of which I call my sadness. 🙁 Well, I guess only meds and cuts can put a smile on my face… (15 F)
I feel so alone, as if I am not good enough.
Today I almost suffocated from my own self-hate. Sigh, not literally, metaphorically. There were so many people in the bathroom all of a sudden and I could not cry, I had to hold it in for approximately ten minutes while they fussed over their picture.
I have lost multiple people in my life. Many, many people. It hurts, I thought they would live forever, they would never leave me, but no they didn’t, people never do. It’s all my fault, all mine, they left this world, and I probably caused it… I was young, so little, my adoptive mother/great great grandmother loved me, hated me, protected me,exposed me, hid me, hurt me, but she kept me alive, she died when I was around seven. All I remember is her in the hospital bed with pictures of us taped to the many wires which were connected to her. She died, with […]
Hello 🙂 I am going to start now…
I have attempted suicide before, but all times my plans have fallen through. I have tried suffocation through bag twice, tried hanging myself once, tried swallowing a ton of pills once, and that’s it. I cut. I despise blood and looking at other peoples injuries makes me want to faint, but for some reason it’s different with my blood. I laugh when I cut and I shake so much. It calms me, makes me happy for a short while. I wish I could be left alone though, my parents are the kind of parents who despise any problems […]
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