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Every one of us on here had a biological father who either put us in harms way or mated with someone who would, with few exceptions.

I get this happy father’s day greeting every year, many times over. I appreciate the well wishes but deep down the very idea of the holiday troubles me. I am on here due to childhood issues attributable to a father with poor judgement and those issues are still in the works of being resolved.

For that reason I never should have reproduced. Never. Just call it Father’s Guilt Day.

A real happy father’s day would have to be prepared for before mating. […]

If it is any consolation, I used to give my email address on here. I thought I could be helpful and be helped more by people if we could chat it up in private. After a few people and and I tried this it was clear none of us was as ready to help as we thought. I was overwhelmed by their needs and vice versa. Yet I was in awe of their humanity and personal traits. We are a smart and wonderful people here, but if my experiences are any indication, we are high maintenance at this time.

Good to see you again!

I was invited to dinner this evening by five normies. Almost all conversation was about their problems. The problems with their children, their pets, their jobs. I, once actively suicidal and still not convinced that deliberate human reproduction is ethical, would keep trying to steer conversation back to positive things. But each time, they where soon back to telling their stories of woe.

In contrast,  I have been out on several occasions with actively suicidal people. They too talked about their problems. But there was a telling difference in the problems being shared. The actively suicidal talked about problems, or the results of problems, that they […]

Haven’t seen you around in a while. You “ok”?

Still unable to comment? You may have already done this, but just in case, the Admins email is  the.suicide.project at gmail.com

As to depression, I have found attention to certain dietary details can make depression less often, less severe, and of shorter duration. These are mainly the taking of two different probiotics, one in the morning and the other one at night, daily. Each probiotic needs a high strain count, like 15 to perhaps 23.
Also you may need to take a bio-available folate supplement to battle depression. I do. The positive effect of this can be very strong.
If the above has helped with depression to the point it is no longer constant, depression will still hit once in a while. This is when Bergamot […]

You ok?

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I had lurked here for years and finally started posting in February. I was just itching to go in those three  posts.   But then my therapist  and I had a break through last week after three years of steady work  and only very modest gains, up to that point. It was, it seems now, the break through we have long sought after and one I was about ready to give up on ever discovering. By the way, all the substances being used in my treatment are all natural and oh so nice with benefits well beyond those expected.

I still see suicide as an essential […]

They are these: I can always find  reasons to live another day, another month, maybe even a year. But are they enough? Doubtful. Now the other piece:

Well what about the future, won’t it be better? Not likely. I’m almost 60 and I am clearly seeing that I do not have the brain or body I once had.

Now to be sure I am no slouch at the present but I passed my peak in most respects about a year ago and I clearly see from here on it will be an accelerating  decent until my life has no useful purpose and no good way out either […]