It’s been a while since I’ve been on here. I met a cool friend on this site and he kind of just disappeared. Ive been feeling really pathetic lately and like no one really gives a shit. I have a lot of suicide thoughts but I don’t think I’ll ever actually kill myself. I just hate my life. I feel like my “friends” pity me. I always feel sad and I want it to stop. I can’t be out with people for more than 2 hours because I start to panic. I don’t know what’s wrong. I’m just a pathetic loser
I’ve been off my meds for about 2 weeks now and I have been having serious anixety attacks and have been not been able to control my anger again. I have tried to stay off this site because reading everyone’s post makes me feel like a shitty person since I see some of you have it worse. Why am I here… I’m such a waste of life honestly. Feeling nothing was better than feeling like I want to punch a wall every minute of my life. I have tried getting a hold of my psychiatrist and my therapist, but neither have time, which shouldn’t they […]
I’ve never attempted to kill myself, but these thoughts are endless. I always told myself that my first attempt would be my last because I would get it right. I never wanted to attempt if I knew I was going fail, but I think I’m ready. I’m sure I’ll get it right. These endless thoughts will stop and I won’t have to suffer any longer.
I wish I wasn’t like this. I know the idea of me being happy will never happen. I can’t be out with people because my anxiety tells me that I’m annoying and should just go home. I think at this point the only thing I feel is embarrassment.
I’ve decided to cut off any social media that surrounds me around people I know. This is basically the one place I will be getting on and that’s only because I don’t know anyone and also it’s not like anyone will actually be reading my post. It’s quite sad actually it’s like I’m talking to myself. I’m so miserable
Well it’s morning and I still obviously want to die. I really just hate waking up knowing that I have nothing to live for. I already know how my days are going to go. They’re always shitty and im just in bed basically until night time. I hope I get the guts soon, to end my own life.
I really want to die, I want to kill myself in the most painful way.
I hate waking up everyday, thinking that someone is going to come in my life and turn everything around. Why do I think this?? It obviously isn’t going to happen. I am so miserable and I hate everything about myself. I’m 20 years old and have no friends. No one cares about me, not even my parents, even though they say they do. Everything is always about them, I try to tell them that i’m not okay, but they end up making it about themselves. I don’t like talking to people […]