I look around, all i see are smiling faces, the faces of people who know who i used to be .. not who i am today .. they all think of me as a happy smiling girl.. i’m not like that anymore. When i see those smiling faces i fake a smile, when i realize i have to fake the smile i get disgusted and want to die.. I want to go back to the days when i didn’t have to fake a smile it was just real. Now everything feels like a lie.. Why cant i just be happy ?