when the girl you love loves someone else. and you wish for death to end your pain
I hate being home, but i love it. When I am home alone, I am free to go throughout my house. i have no boundaries within the walls. But I am not allowed to leave. And this sheltering has made me become scared of the outside world. When my mothers boyfriend is home. i am in my room and do not come out. mainly because of him. He has full controle of the living room, kitchen, both bathrooms, and my mother. he does not clean he does not cook, he doesnt cut the grass or take the trash out. He doesnt walk to puppies he […]
I don’t want to die. But I think of endless ways to kill myself. I dont try to think of ways it just comes to me. It scares me and my body shakes and i have a panic attack so bad i can’t breath. My mother gets on to me for a lot of stuff. when she gets onto me if i say anything back at all, even that i didn’t mean to or something, I get introuble at for talking back, if i say nothing i get yelled at for pouting and having an attitude. i don’t know what she wants me to do. […]