I was with a guy on and off for a little over a year. Even when we were broken up we still messed around its like we were still together even though we really weren’t.. I was and still am madly and deeply in love with him his my first love when Ever I’m with him words can’t describe how I feel.. He would look me dead in the eyes and tell me plenty of times I was his one nd only nd he loved me.. I believed..stupid me..as of yesterday he has a new girlfriend..and I sit here still in disbelief I want to […]
I may be suicidal now but if I were to have children one day I would suck up all that pain and depressio.. Just so I can stay alive and strong for them
So it’s been a couple of months since I cut myself.. Durring those months I was still Going threw some stuff but I had just enough strength to stay away from my razor..but lately I’ve been things have just gotten worse and a little to hard to handle.. With me moving back wih my dad..not hearing from or seeing my mother in so long and being mad her..breaking up with my boy friend and just feeling so alone.. Usually I would be rolling up a blunt right now to get rid of all this pain so I don’t hurt myself..but I can’t for certian […]
Im always so alone I think thats something that also makes me think about suicide I feel like no one cares about me..because no one even bothers to talk to me..at school all day I probably only talk to one person a day only because there forced to talk to me.. Even If I try to talk to someone they don’t listen they just walk away..I feel like everyone hates me for no reason.. I don’t stink..I’m not that ugly..I’m not stupid..I don’t know why they don’t want to talk to me.. It’s just one of things that makes me even more deppressed..:(
Its bad enough I want to kill myself but I also want to kill others.. Not just anyone but certain ppl close to me….. I love to hit things nd ppl.. So I’ve decided to join wrestling… I wud love to be able to choke sum one out knowing I cud possibly kill them if I wanted to….
So theres this guy I’m really starting to like but idk if he likes me too.. I’ll be at my locker sometimes and he’ll come up to and start making conversation but idk if it’s cuz his friends locker is right next to mine… And my other friend we will call her “Brit” introduced me into and she knows I like him but every time me and him end up walking together and Brit comes he starts talking to her and she’s really pretty so idk if he likes her.. His a whole grader older then me to… I know I really like him to. […]
The only time I feel happy, enjoy life and don’t even think about suicide is when I’m Stonned as fuck…
I want to commite suicide…but i know i will miss lots of things….like the sweet of music that always clams….the cool summer breeze….the shinning sun shin…. All its all the little things i know ill miss…but this little things are not enough to get ride of the pain i have…
no matter how much i try to be good i just cant…i dont know why i always fuck things…not only for me but for everyone eles around…i dont deserve to be here…
I used to think I loved my mother unconditionally… No matter what she did or how many times she hurt… I still always forgave… But my love has reached its limit she has hurt me countless times and I am done with her… She will never change…. I only hope that one day I can not love her agin but forgive her for all she has done…
I think one of the main reasons I can not do suicide is that I am afraid of going to hell.. They say if u kill your self it’s a major sin and you go to hell? I am not a religious person but the thought of this scares me.. What if this is true what if my after life is worse then my current life?? Is ther an after life?? Is there a hell?? Or is it just death when you die nothing more?
My first thought suicide was when I was really young about 8 years old I tried to slice my wrist open… I am now 14 years old and instead of trying to kill myself anymore I smoke weed to escape… Every now and then I still think of suicide but then I just go and smoke….
So my aunt has had custody of me for a few years now and at first it was just me and her until her husband came into the picture thats when things went bad… For years now there has been content arguing and many times were they almost got a divorce and all because of me.. It’s came to the point were enough is enough and they might get a divorce for real this time.. I feel that if I leave and go back with my dad then my. Aunt can save her marriage with me out of the picture… Should I leave or stay….idk […]
I created an account here to try and help me deal with All my problems.. I fell like this is. Place where I can let out all of my feelings and not be judged or put down… Plus I think it will be good to let all my emotions out instead of keeping it all bottled up….