Iv thought about my own death since I was a child. I almost went through with it in high school and experienced what I felt was a supernatural phenomenon, which in turn kept me going for a long time. Years of trauma, childhood neglect, multiple rapes around college, and being told it was my fault by my community has caused me to keep my hope for death close to my heart. Over the years I’ve experinced successes and failures. More rapes, homelessness, being assulted by cops. I remember thinking one day, this is the day, and then seeing a reflection of myself in a window […]