Here I am, sitting by a lake, with nothing but the moonlight, the Frey’s “You found me,” and my blade… I’ve always been the one to reach out to help others, but came to realize the favor will never be returned. Ive managed to cope as best I could, but Im afraid minor scars dont do the trick anymore. Even as I am writing this – perhaps BECAUSE I am writing this- I am fighting. Fighting with every breath I take not to let the blade glide across my veins and leave me to slowly fall unconsious, while all memories written in scarlet, […]
We all come with baggage of insecurities, fears, shortcomings, emotions. We all feel, that’s what makes us Human. But…some of us are born with something extraordinary, an ability to feel a lot stronger. It’s a gift and a curse. When we are happy, others can’t comprehend how happy, but when we are engulfed by darkness, we feel miserable enough to die. I speak from the inside perspective, and it really isn’t easy to live with. Sometimes, I look at the sky from somewhere high up, and am ready to reach for the heaven and jump. Other days, I feel so powerful, like i can do […]
I’m not here to judge or talk you out of cutting, overdosing, or other means of escaping. Primarily because i myself have been through it all and still am. My life has been a constant shove here and there for me to pick up the blades i keep in my makeup bag. Scars dont bother me, the pain can be grown accustomed to. I have heard just about every cliche from people who swear they want to help. I am not a reject and have always done well in school and outside. I have friends and am not a total failure as a girl. But […]