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The Hush Sound – You Are The Moon

by architect 12/15/2015

written by architect

All the light that you possess is skewed by lakes and seas

The shattered surface, so imperfect, is all that you believe

I will set the mirror up to face the blackened sky

You will see your beauty every moment that you rise

I just wanted to protect her, and everyone else that I cared about, from unhappiness. I know the frigid, bleak nights, and I know how they scrape at your sanity, at your soul.

Today, I found out she’s moved to a different country, and that she wants nothing to do with me. Today, and all foreseeable days, I only have sleep to look forward to. It’s better than nothing. […]

12/15/2015 1 comment

Unwritten Law – Save Me

by architect 12/13/2015

written by architect

I’m sick of my sickness, don’t touch me, you’ll get this

I’m useless, lazy, perverted, and you hate me

Am I alone in finding a way to blame myself for every single problem, no matter how trivial? Honestly, everything is my fault. I’m sorry. Trust me, the guilt is like gravity to me.

She is perfect, and I imperfect. Things are as they should be.

12/13/2015 2 comments

Sleeping At Last – Neptune

by architect 12/12/2015

written by architect

If brokenness is a form of art, I must be a poster child prodigy

If brokenness is a work of art, surely this must be my masterpiece

Every time something begins, I can’t ever wait for it to end.

12/12/2015 1 comment

Margot and The Nuclear So and So’s – Dress Me Like a Clown

by architect 12/11/2015

written by architect

I am alive, I am alive, and that is the best that I can do

Golden-haired, golden-hearted; she was the most beautiful person I knew, and I drove her out of my life, out of my arms. “I can’t live without her” would be the appropriate, predictable thing to say, but the problem is, it isn’t even true. I can live without her. I know I can live through any pain, and I hate myself for it. I just want the peace that only comes with death.

12/11/2015 1 comment

Baths – Lovely Bloodflow

by architect 12/10/2015

written by architect

You are my bloodflow

If there is a god of death, would he be this merciful? I have only ever tried to be sane, to be true.

12/10/2015 1 comment

Cinnamon Chasers – Luv Deluxe

by architect 12/9/2015

written by architect

No matter who you choose to be: a follower, a villain, a hero, it will all come down as blood on your head. Isn’t that comforting, to an extent?

I don’t want to try anymore. I wish I had the courage to leave everything behind and run away with someone like in the video, even if I knew it meant my downfall.

12/9/2015 2 comments

Breton – Got Well Soon

by architect 12/8/2015

written by architect

But here’s the ground and there’s your feet

And never the two shall meet

If a complete stranger foiled my suicide on purpose like in the music video, I wonder how I’d feel. Something tells me it would be a perfect, contradictory concoction of fury and relief.

12/8/2015 14 comments