It may look like scribbles to you but they are words just 2 words “worthless” and “useless” (there is more words I have written this way but can’t bend my arm to get a pic) I needed to feel something I need to feel pain. (I also drew death with his scythe which I can’t bend my arm far enough to take pictures of that…) No I’m not bleeding tbh the site of blood makss me feel quite queasy. But […]
My anxiety is kicking in because of the words/fight that was exchanged between me and my brother he’s coming to see me and I couldn’t be more scared ya see family is aloud to come visit me I’m aloud to have my brothers kids for the night I’m having a panic attack and my breathing is slowly getting worse my lungs hurt and I’m hyperventilating I need to distract myself I’m all alone till he arrives….. Help me……
Happy Tuesday to me…. FML I hate waking up I just want it to stop all the words, the voices, the demons just stop and leave me alone.
*closes box* but seriously though…. *rage quits life*
Bruh its quiet 
So I’ve been crying for the last hour overdon’t the shit my brother threw at me all his words nasty bitter angry words… Saying I can’t do this can’t do that I’m not doing anything. Everything I do is wrong I’m never right I’m stupid never gonna get a job. Useless, worthless leach. I fucking stood up to him to some degree before the tears came rolling in I feel like clawing skin till it burns and bleeds I need to feel pain I want to feel pain. But I feel nothing I feel empty cold and bitter I’m numb from his words. I’m so […]
It’s a absolute shit box people are niceish walls are completely plain dull as mah life…. IRL life of course…
So it is currently 10:35am NZ time and doctor’s can’t do their job right gave the wrong medication and stopped breathing for a bit other then that I’m fine someone distract me…. Also in 2 hours I get transferred to the rehab unit so yay for me…FML. HALP 
shit pic of mah hair FML stupid camera I also love copying styles and colors of Hayley Williams <3 see I wasn’t kidding. My hair is really this color… my mom booked a appointment so yay…
I googled kawaii red panda I squealed so hard IRL
So I currently sit in hospital… I was successful but unfortunately I was revived… I was happy I was there I had eternal bliss but no I was revived unfortunately people “apparently” wanted me alive… I just want to be happy is that to much to ask for?
Fuck you shapes close enough voila
So like March 24th I put a post up So Now What? Basically saying something random and this is what it said:
“When i’m bored, I send a text to a random number saying “I hid the body… now what?”
So I found this… And when I was out it happened luckily people were able to take a joke I was scared the police were gonna get called… So… Yep… anyone keen?
Now don’t be worried if I don’t reply straight away I’ve been awake for 3 days straight technically 4 days since it’s 4:36am
-Sui
I’m nobody’s child, I’m nobody’s child
I’m like a flower just growing wild
No mommy’s kisses and no daddy’s smiles
Nobody wants me, I’m nobody’s child
I just can’t seem to understand
Why the folks all pass me by
‘Cause I know that it’s true that God takes
Little blind children with him in the sky
And they tell me that I’m oh so pretty
And they seem to like my big curls of gold
But then they take some other little child
Here’s my email if you guy’s are that worried
ashleeattemptedsuicide@gmail.com
I’m fine though… I think
-Sui
