Who was the writer (was it Edgar Allen Poe) who wrote about ‘the dark night of the soul’. Last night I wished for even some weed to knock me out. It’s a goddamn torture to lie awake for hours, wishing that I could bring on a heart attack just by will alone.
There is a drug used by South American tribes which users say makes you relive every wrong thing you have ever done or said and feel the pain that the person who you said it to or did it to felt. This supposedly cleanses you.
I don’t need that drug. In my […]
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So, here I am, back in the place that only people who have been here before know about. I hate it when people say suicide is a selfish act. Of course it is, but I have lived a selfish life. Being called selfish after death is the least of my worries. I could repeat all the cliches “why aren’t my prayers for death answered?” Why haven’t I done it yet? It has been a consuming thought for most of my 55 years. “it will get better” “It’s only temporary” Do you think there’s anything a shrink or well wisher can tell me that I […]