Every moment of every day it’s with me. I have tried to hide it with drugs, alcohol, eating disorder, self scarring…You name it.
I have written notes, I have come very close….But, I am too afraid to fail. How sick is that? Too afraid…Afraid I will end up in a coma or paralyzed or deformed or worse….
I am middle aged and have always been depressed…Even as a child…No matter how much I try, how many psych meds I am on, how much therapy, support…Nothing works…
I didn’t choose to live this “life” and nor do I want to be here in the now writing this. Not even […]