If I were to die right now, nobody I know (in real life) would give a shit. It’s hard to want to live when nobody cares about you and you think your life is worthless, that it’s not worth living. And even worse when you can’t fucking kill yourself either, so you’re forced to be alive and miserable.
And it’s hard not to be miserable and depressed when nobody cares about you.
Bah!
Do watching YouTube videos make you happier or more depressed? When I watch these videos (not celebrities, mind you) but of “ordinary” people, I see so much talent- people who can sing, people who can dance, draw, play musical instruments, rap, beat-box, heck even people who speak well or people who know how to put on make-up to make themselves look like superstars (all those tutorials)! Maybe I should stop watching shows like American Idol and X-Factor…
When I look at myself, I don’t feel like I’m good at anything. I don’t have any talent. Ok, so I am relatively intelligent and I do have a […]
I’ve been a shut-in for months now, only going out to get food. Lately I haven’t even been going out to get food. Been ordering food so all I have to do is go down 4 flights of stairs. But even that’s hard to do now. A lot of days I go hungry because I don’t have real food in my apt and I don’t even want to face the world, even if it’s so little as having to walk out my apt and go down and meet my delivery guys.
I feel pathetic but the only thing I do is go online, go to suicide […]
Right now I’m thinking about all the people who screwed me over and how much I hate them.
I haven’t posted on this site in a while (though I read often from time to time). So what is this new paid member subscription thing?
I’m perpetually depressed, I have no one, no friends, no one to love me or care about me. I wish I could just end my life, but I can’t even do that.
I don’t see how “things will get better” when it hasn’t for three decades.
I have suffered all of my life. My childhood was filled with abuse, my 20s and 30s has been wrought with illness and injuries, ones that affect me every day of my life and will never get better. I am in constant pain. I’m not in my 40s yet but my miserable existence begs the question: What is the point of living?
Everyone is all happy and festive today, which makes me even MORE annoyed, depressed and alone.
Do happy ppl annoy the shit out of you? It’s easy for people to say shit like “look on the bright side of things” or “it’s not that bad” or “good things will happen” when THEY don’t live the life you do or have the problems you do. I have a lot of real issues, not just depression and mental ones, but physical / health problems, financial problems, housing problems.
People are always telling you to THINK HAPPY and “take it one day at a time” or say shit like “I’ll pray […]
and so are the people in this fucked up world.
Why does it suck ass?
-Because I have no real friends. I have ONE person who emailed me Happy Birthday. Oddly enough, more companies send me Happy Birthday emails than real live people. Companies that want my business… O_o
-Because I’m disabled- my hands and legs don’t work well, as well as a bunch of other body parts in between. And I’m in my 30s. Yeah, fuck me.
-Because I have no one to help me
-Because I’m all alone
-Because I’m poor and I can’t dig my way out of poverty when my body and limbs don’t work
-Because life is hard as shit when you’re poor AND disabled AND […]
People and their phony words and phony friendships. They say they are there for me but when I reach out to them, they hang up on me, or never return my phone calls. Like tonight. Thanks for not being there for me you liars.
I’m in so much pain and am all alone. I have no one in this world, a world of 7 billion people, and not a single person I know truly cares about me. How fucking lonely is that? I don’t have a single true friend is this world.
I’m so angry at everyone who’s screwed me over. SO many people. My entire life people have treated me like shit, ever since I was a baby, screwed me over, punished me for no reason. I am slighted at every turn. The injustices never end.
:'(
How can one person feel so much pain? Â Why is it that others can be at peace, but some of us are afflicted with this never-ending turmoil? All I feel for all these decades is pain, so much pain. Â When will the pain and suffering end??
when you have nothing and no one? Â Only this shamble of a life that you abhor? Â And after a while, you start hating yourself too because you couldn’t make your life work, no matter what you try. Â And eventually you give up trying.
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