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I am broken in every way, physically and mentally.  My life sucks.  I want to be free from my anguish and torment, although this might mean death.  In life, I have had nothing but pain and suffering.  I am annoyed I didn’t end it all when I was 7.   Now, I’m middle-aged (ugh).  All that suffering, torment and pain could have been avoided had I disappeared from the world.  Now is too late since I can’t seem to be able to go through with it anymore.   All I’ve ever wanted was to have peace and happiness.  Why is that something I cannot have?

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…is just so fucked up.  Caused 30 years of pain and it never ends.

It’s not fair that some people have to suffer so much.  :'(

I’m breaking…  I need my life to change but it’s been bad bad bad and worse for the last 30 years.  How do you keep going on when you no longer have hope that things will get better?

Please don’t say “everything will get better”, “just take it one day at a time” because I’ve heard all that way too often and it really doesn’t mean anything. Things *haven’t* gotten better;  it’s only gotten worse.  Which is why I’m here.

So sad and alone.  I don’t have any friends and nobody loves me.  If I died, no one would care.  They might feel a little guilt for treating me so bad or ignoring me, but that’d be all.

And you guys are strangers, so don’t say you care, because none of you actually know me.

Just so hard to deal with life.  When you try so hard to be nice, and yet people still don’t like you and you still don’t fit in anywhere.  No, I am not a young teenager, but have lived several decades wrought with sheer pain and misery- and I mean that literally- […]

Due to depression and mainly health issues, I have absolutely no energy to go do anything.  How can one live life when one doesn’t even have the energy to go feed oneself, dress oneself, go out, etc.  Heck, I have to drag myself to the bathroom half the time.

Just wtf kind of life can you lead when you can barely do that??

It’s pathetic and I hate that my life- I hate that my life was stolen from me.  

No, it’s not a “mind over matter” thing.  My body is physically broken and what semblance of a life is completely shattered.  And I hate being told […]

My life is crap  :'(

People are so friggin aggravating.  UGH.

Sometimes I wish I could be someone else.  I can’t keep my sh*t together and fall apart all the time.

i just wish i wasn’t such a failure, wallowing in my self-pity, but too tired to keep trying when i’ve tried and tried and tried and failed and failed…

i just wish people would love me for who i am, depression warts and all.

i wish people would stop judging.

i wish “normal” people would understand.  but no one really understands unless they go through it themselves.

i’m tired of being a loser.  i’m tired of putting up a “happy” front when i am not ok, when i am literally dying inside.

i’m tired of not being able to make my life work.

i’m tired of constantly being depressed and unhappy.

i […]

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I haven’t been able to achieve anything the last few years.  No job, failing health, I don’t care for life anymore, no boyfriend, heck- I can’t seem to make a single friend who truly wants to be with me the last few years.

I am unable to achieve happiness.  I hate my life, I hate that I haven’t been able to accomplish anything, I hate that I can’t even get people to like me.  :'(

And seeing everyone else who has got a life and has friends and family who love them just annoys the crap out of me!  Why can most everyone else achieve that but […]

Life is full of unending struggles, pain and injustice.

Then your body slowly breaks down on you and you die a slow, agonizing death.

Great.  Just great.