I haven’t written on here for quite some time I think that it is pertinent for me to put something in the way of an update. My current feeling is that alcohol and drugs are taking over, if I’m not drunk or high I can’t sleep. I hope that the next time I do it it becomes the end of me. I don’t think addiction is a cycle to be broken I think it is to be maintained until thw inevitable. My own perspective is that I will never have respite from how I feel, the fact it’s been nearly a year since I posted […]
I was just wondering if anyone else on here has been diagnosed with S.A.D? How are you all doing?
So the last time I cut myself was early in March and I have not had a time since then that I’ve wanted to as much as right now. I threw all my razors away and have not bought any new ones since but each day I have the urge to go out and buy new ones. I self harm when I hate myself and it just seems to be more and more apparent to me that I don’t like who I am. I’ve already slipped into the habit of my old eating disorder, I go to university so it is not like anyone monitors […]
Long story short I haven been planning to kill myself for many years, I believe the time has come for it to happen and I want it to go right. This isn’t a plea for help I’m 19 now and have been planning to since I was 13, I have got a method and know when to do it on the basis that my body won’t be found for at least 3 weeks after it has happened. I was just wondering if there was any way I could put in place to not have a funeral. I don’t want to have some sort of ceremony […]