I’m longing to die. Every part of my cookie cutter life is driving me crazy. I’m on the brink of killing myself, with suicide always on my mind. I wish I had to guts to act on my plans though. I keep making plans and at the last minute I just can’t do it. I hate living here. I don’t understand why I can’t just relieve myself of this pain and have it over with. I just don’t understand why I don’t have the guts to do the one thing I want most -to die
I feel numb inside. broken and numb. everyone always tells me “why are you so unhappy? you have loving parents and loving friends, theres nothing wrong with you”. im sick of hearing that. just so fucking sick. just because everything is perfect on the outside it doesnt mean that everything is perfect on the inside too. news flash, its not. i just spent three weeks in a psych ward being forced to talk about my feelings and my depression. all the doctors and social workers just looked at me and told me that i needed to believe the fact people love me and itll get […]
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