So why continue the relationship? From one day to the next. Thank you for beautiful relationship, goodbye. WTF? How am I supposed to react to that? How am I supposed to breath after that? I’ve tried calling lots of therapist today in hopes of seeing someone, all of them say leave a message and they will get back to me. Thanks for nothing. I feel like I’m never going to be okay. I’m never going to get back to me. Whatever small shell of that I had in the first place. I thought I had finally gotten it right and then bam the wind is […]
I’m so pretty. I’m so smart. I’m so friendly. SHUT THE FUCK UP! I’m broken, I’m damaged, I’m beyond sad. I went to the doctor today, mostly because I can’t sleep. All I want to do is sleep. Sleep the pain away, sleep till I can’t remember anymore. The funny question always comes up….Suicidal thoughts? What do I say to that? The truth? HA!!!
Then I’m wheeled away to some hospital and kept under lock and key. Please, so you half smile and tell the good doctor exactly what he wants to hear.
I pray for death. I pray for lovely ending of all this pain. Everyday […]
I’ve always been a sad person. Recently I thought I had finally found happiness and then out of nowhere he left me. I hate feeling so petty. The man I love left me. So what. It happens every day. Yet I have never felt more sad. I feel like a turtle that is on its back and can’t turn myself back. I finally let myself be myself and he left. One day we were fine and then the next we weren’t. The wind has been knocked out of me. I wish I could understand. I wish I could breath. I wish, I wish , I […]