I’ve posted here before. I had a bicycle accident 19 months ago. Fractured my neck and spinal cord and left me paralyzed. I’ve worked hard to get better and now I have limited use of my arms and hands and can sort-of walk or stumble
like I’m drunk. I have constant nerve pain and need help dreessing, showering, with toilet and supervision walking. I hate living this way, I hate being alive. I’m totally overwhelmed by insurance requirements (disability, SSDI, health, long-term-care) and trying to ensure that I continue having health insurance or Medicare. It’s so f*ing complex I want to scream or put […]
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I am male, 57, living a mid-size city in a southern state. In 2012 I was in a bicycle accident and fractured my spinal cord. Mostly paralyzed from the shoulders down. Hospitalized for 3 months, came home in a wheelchar. I'm doing physical therapy and exercise 5-6 days each week. Now I'm walking, but lose balance easily and stumble like I'mdrunk. Can't raise my arms above my chest, can't lift mre than a few pounds. Fingers hands, feet toes and arms are numb and in pain, even with 3 painkillers. Need help dressing showering, toilet, walking, etc. I've almost reached the 18- month mark when spinal cord injuries have almost finished all the healing/recovery they'll ever do. Also have other chronic medical issues. Family and friends have been amazingly supportive. But I just don't want to live this way. No freedom independence privacy, getting older too. Arms are just sticks hanging from bony shoulders. Before accident I was a gym rat, worked out hard in gym 2-3 hours/day 7/days/week. Well-defined proportioned muscles, 6-pack, 25-year-olds said they wished they were ripped like me. Now I look pathetic, and people stare at me wondering whats wrong. I hate this life and see nothing ahead but pain and sickness and dependence.
Ha, made you look! 😉
Just an update since my first post a few weeks ago.
I am recovering from a bicycle accident; spinal cord injury; partially paralyzed…)
I’m afraid that i won’t be able to do it. I’m afraid that I will be too afraid to pull
the trigger, or tighten the escape bag and turn on the gas. I am also afraid of surviving and making things worse. I’ve worked real hard, at the rehab hospital they call me the most persistent man ever. No one can say that I haven’t put everything I’ve got into it
Lots of people , inc. my […]
New here. Paralyzed from bicycle accident, don’t want to live this way
Hey, I’m new here. I wrote in my profile about my situation. I’m partially paralyzed from a spinal cord fracture due to a bicycle accident.
I went from being a buf, muscled and toned gym rat to having shriveled arms hanging from bony shoulders, walking like I’m drunk and
needng help with everything, dresing, showering, toilet, etc. I don’t want to live this way any more.
I’ve worked hard in phys therapy and exercise to try to regain my abilities, but it’s closing in on 18 months, and
that’s when spinal cord injuries stop healing. So I’m pretty much stuck the way I am for […]