let  die already. an old flame contacted me, huzband  found out, he os xoesnt trust me and doeznt wNg to come home. all  wZ talk o my ex….for a  ery ong time on the phone. now im fuckef. sorry bout tbe pelling…kindle cks.
hello everyone, its een awhile since ive been here. i wanted to invite you to my youtube channel where i  am recording my depression diaries. type in “jmemaund” to see them. some videos are sad, while some are goofy and silly. i think you can relate to them…
TOUGH TIMES DONT LAST, but tough people do, screw  your past, don’t let it screw you.
i had to put my cat down today, he was fourteen years old.
hes gone. im in my bed right now, but he isnt hear. hes always here, right by my head. but hes not here.
who is going to sleep on my head now?
because hes not hear.
my shadow has left,
to rainbow bridgd
what would you like to talk about?’…..
I asked God to give me happiness, he said no, I give you blessings , happiness is up to you
I asked God to Spair me pain, God said no, suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.
I asked God to help me love others as much as he loves me.
God said Ahhhh, you finally have the idea.
I don’t get drunk; I get awesome.
I don’t get nearly enough credit for managing not to be a violent psychopath.
so much pain coming from all the posts and no one that wants to talk about it.
IT MAKES YOU HUNGRY!
I wish for everybody to have a good holiday and a safe and happy New year.
for all of you under 18 and have a bad home life, do the best you can with making your life the best you can. stay in school, get an education, learn from your experiences ,helping others actually helps you, be kind but stAnd tall. breath, stay calm. your not alone in this world. whatever your problem, there is someone out there with your same problem. you can overcome all obstacles, it’s your choice. hang in there, sanity is in the minds eye.
peace.
there is a solution to everyone’s pain. after years and years if feeling like you, after allall my suicide attempts and failures, after many many hospitalizations and drugs and bad  living situations…I was forced to keep going, finally made it thru the other side. life isn’t always easy and j suffer from depression. but I have found a way to cope for the MOST part am happy. you can do it too. it takes work though. after realizing killing yourself isn’t so easy, I made the choice to live.
Ifind it ironic how sad it is to hear when someone kills themself, yet you want to do the same.
…and I don’t want to. I’d rather fall asleep and never wake up. scince I can’t do even the smallest of chores, I try, but then I’m so tired, I say to myself these chores will be here tomorrow. then tomorrow comes and I repeat the cycle all over again. I avoid family functions because I don’t want to talk to anybody. it’s nit fair to my son or my husband. I feel like such a disappointment to them and how can they understand my feelings when I am fully functional…my legss work, my arms work. I can walk talk and sometimes laugh. so why […]
how do I get motivated? all I Â want to do is sleep. I’m never social and avoid it at all costs.I gave shit that needs to get done, but I feel glued to my bed. this isn’t a life. I wish I could somehow get excited about waking up because the highlight of my day is when I get to go to sleep.
do you just want to be heard or do you need someone to talk to? can I help?
Isn’t that funny. I made you dinner, ironic uh? I couldn’t see your face though but I knew it was you.
rocketman, i cant talk to you anymore through email. I’m so afraid my husband will find out even though all is harmless. i love talking with you but because I’m deliberating hiding all our texts i know its wrong. he would think so too. 🙁 but i ordered those dvds we talked about! im sure he’s going to appreciate them.:)))
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