…and I don’t want to. I’d rather fall asleep and never wake up. scince I can’t do even the smallest of chores, I try, but then I’m so tired, I say to myself these chores will be here tomorrow. then tomorrow comes and I repeat the cycle all over again. I avoid family functions because I don’t want to talk to anybody. it’s nit fair to my son or my husband. I feel like such a disappointment to them and how can they understand my feelings when I am fully functional…my legss work, my arms work. I can walk talk and sometimes laugh. so why can’t I do the laundry and fold the clothes, or clean the kitchen and bathroom? it is because I am depressed. I can’t feel any pleasure so why do I continue to breath ? I can’t take my own life because I can nit leave my son without a mother, so I am forced to live in this life where I can only see in black and white. I feel I have flat lined but still alive. I have no tears I have no joy I am just here. a waste of life.
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You’re not a waste of life. You have a son who loves you, he worships you, you are his god, his mother. You have a loving husband who read his vows to you. Who said he’d love you till the day you die. Through thick and thin, he’ll be there, and that exactly what should be happening. Talk to him, he’d understand.
You’re not a waste of life my dear. You have created a child and brang happiness to the world. Smile, tomorrow is a new day. <3
blackhole,
so……………….. do you think your dead already and you just don’t no to lay down?
make it a routine no matter how hard it is! get up and get busy! you spring chicken!