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Hello, my name is Kriss. I used to be suicidal. I have decided, with the help of my boyfriend, I will no longer let that get me down. I will share my struggles here on this website.

All my regrets…

by BladesxOfxHope
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Everyone has regrets, right? Some lies they told, something they did. Well here are all of mine. Please, don’t judge me. Some are past tense, some are present tense. But no matter which tense it is, I’ve never told anyone any of these.

As a child, I never once said please or thank you.

When I was little, I never told anyone anything that happened to me. I never told my mom that my father sexually abused me twice in my life.

I wish I denied the Christmas presents my teachers gave me.(I don’t celebrate Christmas)

I wish I payed more attention to what my parents taught me.

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Short story thing with no title.

by BladesxOfxHope
written by BladesxOfxHope

I sit there, curious about the cut on her arm. She looks sad. Did she do it on purpose? My mommy is crying, she’s crying over Sophie’s body. Sophie did hurt herself.

“Mommy, what happened?” I ask.

My mommy just looks at me. She looks very, very sad. I think I didn’t ask the right thing. “Sophie hurt herself very bad.”

I am confused. Then I hear my big brother, my worst enemy, Joshua, come in. He looks at Sophie, who still hasn’t woken up, and this look of rage enters his face. He starts screaming bad things at me. “It’s your  fault!”

“Why where you even born!?”

“You waste […]

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PLEASE READ- YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!

by BladesxOfxHope
written by BladesxOfxHope

Hey.

I am Kriss. 15. From Ohio. I’m a girl, btw. There are SO MANY posts wondering if people know how they feel, if they’re really alone. But please, listen to me!

You are never alone! You may not believe this, you may not care, but you have ME, GOD, FAMILY MEMBERS (yes I am sure you have at least one. If not a family friend or something like that) and other TRUSTED ADULTS. You are not alone. I know how it feels to be alone- I am one of those kids that constantly feels alone. But really we are not alone.

If you were alone, would these […]

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Losing Hope and getting it back

by BladesxOfxHope
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Hey, I am Kriss (Short for Kristina). I am 15, going on 16, and I live in Ohio. I am German, and British with a little bit of Native American and Irish in me.

I just thought I would be neighborly and introduce myself. I am here because, like most everyone, I at one time have tried to kill myself. I was only 11 the first time, 13 and then 15. I have always had PSTD. For those who don’t know that is Post Tramatic Stress Disorder. What happened, though, that would have caused me this terrible thing? Well, here is my story.

I went to […]

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