I feel like I’m just getting by with most things. I don’t want to “just get by” anymore but it feels so hard to do anything. It is a vicious cycle. I think I am doing better and I want to for a glimpse. But self doubt and self hatred consume me again. I’m bad at everything, nothing will come of me. Not that I want to be important! but I do have dreams. I just don’t see myself as someone strong enough to get there. I try and then, I don’t try. Again and again, every time a little less effort. I’m so tired.
