I feel like I’m just getting by with most things. I don’t want to “just get by” anymore but it feels so hard to do anything. It is a vicious cycle. I think I am doing better and I want to for a glimpse. But self doubt and self hatred consume me again. I’m bad at everything, nothing will come of me. Not that I want to be important! but I do have dreams. I just don’t see myself as someone strong enough to get there. I try and then, I don’t try. Again and again, every time a little less effort. I’m so tired.
I feel so pathetic.
I keep thinking that it would be so nice if i just died in accident. Maybe then i would have meaning. I almost got hit by a car recently.
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But in that hour of reflection you are more than all of that you can and will accomplish your desires. Motivation waxes and wanes. But there is nothing you can’t accomplish that you can’t put your mind too. You are more than that. Go with the flow put more effort into it when you have the motivation and chill out when you are down and out
Thank you.